Listening to your Body
Walking through a transformation in your life can be so many things: exhilarating, scary, exciting, overwhelming, uneasy and much more. These are unlimited reasons why so many people choose to stay put in their current states, the status quo is easy, change is hard.
I think I had a mid-life crisis. I think I had a re-creation of myself. I think I had an awakening.
Regardless of the reason, change needed to happen in my life. I changed my relationships, my parenting, my home, my job and my outlook on life. This took some boldness in the face of fear, courage in the face of adversity, and patience in the presence of negative voices telling me what to do. Holding on to my vision and staying focused on the end result was the only way I made it to the end of this journey (which is now a new beginning).
People need to change for all sorts of reasons. For me, I was empty. I had given so much of myself for so long and sacrificed all of my own needs for others that I simply had nothing left to give. I needed to take back control of my own life and begin to live it. Since I was newly married and starting my career, I did what everyone else told me to do. "Oh, Chris, you'd be so great at this", or "Chris, why would you do that?" would be phrases I'd hear and listen to without any of my own viewpoints, I shut those off for some reason.
Making changes comes with consequences. I had to push people out of my life and I had to give up the work I had created that gave me so much pleasure and purpose. This had to be done if I were to survive and to flourish.
Does that sound drastic? Maybe it is...but I felt like I was dying. I had physical pain and mental pain that was creating barriers to enjoying life. I was overweight and miserable. I learned that because I ignored myself for so long, my body was starting to shut down and tell me things need to change. Can you resonate with that? Does your head ever get foggy or racing? Does your body ache more than it used to? Do you have digestive issues you never did before? Are there unhealthy relationships in your life? Does your work build you up or tear you down? All of these things are important to consider.
I don't think we pay enough attention to our bodies. I also don't think we reach out for help enough. I began working with a registered holistic nutritionist. Vanessa Case was amazing as I learned about the types of food I should be eating and what my body was telling me it needed. I began working with a Reiki Master, Jennifer Lamb, who helped me clear negative energy and care for myself better. I worked with my doctor for the right medication to support my health better. I worked with my counsellor to ensure my mental health was being cared for. I found Old East Village Fitness and they helped me take care of my body physically. I kept close friends nearby who fed my soul instead of the friends who drained my energy. These people kept me accountable, loved me and challenged me to be the best me possible. My family also supported me and loved me along the way.
I have now safely landed in a new, beautiful apartment with a gorgeous view of downtown London. Marsbar is acclimatized and loving it (even though he needs his teddy bear and dog-friendly music when I leave the house). The kids are doing well on their own, and I'm learning to parent adults better every day. My work is a new challenge (or adventure) as it teaches me new leadership skills and is helping me find my true voice. The impact I'm having is positive which is all I care about. Overall, life is good. I am blessed and super thankful to all those who helped me get here. It's been a long hard road but it happened.
My wish is that for anyone out there who needs to change their life, that you know it is possible. It isn't easy, but it is SO worth it. May life show you what you need to do and may you feel better than you ever have before.